I'm writing a book. I've never made the attempt before - and certainly never in such a manner, but I can't help myself. I have to. Some part of me is urging me to write these things down, write things from my perspective, only not really. It isn't about me, but about a girl named Katrinka. I guess you could say it is about who I was rather than who I am. Not even really that, because it isn't about me at all. It's about other things, it is about experiences and situations. growing up and learning how to live. It's about Katrinka.

I wonder if people will like it. Regardless of how others react though I still will write in my own mediocre way, and take down what I can. When I am done I will print it out and send it to publishers. Hopefully someone will like it and maybe it'll get published. The only thing I really want though is for it to get read. For others to understand what it's like for someone who isn't really all there. Someone who has been this way for as long as she can remember and never really understood why others react the way they do. I think as I progress I might post it on here. For sure I'm going to write parts of it here and see how others like it. If they don't though it wont stop me from writing it - rather it'll probably just keep me from continuing to post bits and pieces on here.

I wonder how this will turn out?

~Marina